dance

got a bit depressed yesterday & today, after hearing about the level of lse dance ): i want to keep on dancing. keep on performing. i feel like i've improved so much in the past 2 years. and i want to keep that momentum going. i want to keep improving. when i watch danny, it just brings tears to my eyes. how i wish i could dance like him. i believe nothing is impossible. and i want to achieve the best i can be in dance. i don't want my dancing life to be cut off again. i cut it off in sec 1, found it again in sec 2 through rgs dance. but i never was more than average in rgs dance. lao shi barely noticed i even existed. and i lost that passion for dance. cos it seemed to me, at that time, that many of us danced just cos we needed a cca, not really cos it was what we loved to do. and yet in j1, being with my batch dancers, being with people who understand and love dance as much as i do. it made me believe in dance again.

i don't know how to quite explain to others why i love dancing so much. i've spent my whole life arguing with my parents on how i need to dance. and dance was not a waste of my time. i gave up all my free time to dance. before sentio, before amarante. i hardly went out, hardly spent time with my friends, just so i could dance the best i could. dancing is like breathing to me. it has over the years has become an intrinsic part of me, and part of my identity. all who knows me, know that dance always comes along with me. i know when i wax lyrical about dancing, some might just think 'oh here she goes again'. and most don't get why i get so happy and excited abt sytycd, or agitated when dances are horrid. its something only sincere dancers get i suppose. and when i say sincere, i mean dancing from e bottom of your heart. dancing without any other intention than to be happy.